Right now I’m sitting at Starbucks and I believe the Lord is vividly trying to tell me something through the people around me. When I first got here, a man and woman probably in their 50’s sat down across from me while I opened up my laptop. They seemed to be genuinely nice people, we chit chatted a little about how crazy technology is nowadays. But as they continued to talk amongst themselves (with no intent of concealing their conversation), I realized that they had just met. And when I say they just met, I mean like 5 minutes ago. If you were sitting a good 20 feet away from them outside of hearing distance and only analyzing their body language you would assume this couple had at least been dating for a little while. As I unwillingly endured their conversation, I picked up on the fact that both of them were desperate. This woman who has no apparent husband, two daughters who recently moved out, and a very revealing dress on, is clearly so lonely. She’s desperate to be desired. And this man, who I assume spent time in the navy because the tattoos on his arm, is desperate for company…. but in more of a physical sense, if you know what I mean. As they walked out to their cars, he grabbed her waist and attempted to kiss her goodbye…. she quickly turned her head and shut her car door and jetted out of the parking lot…. as she should have.
The lonely woman didn’t get what she’s desperate for.
The sex-hungry old man didn’t get what he’s desperate for.
Now sitting across from me is a young mother with her daughter who I would guess is about 11 years old. The little girl is wearing big purple sunglasses as she sits next to her mom who is consumed with her laptop and cell phone, making business calls…. and although I don’t know what kind of business she’s in….it doesn’t seem to be going well. “Oh God, I’m stressed” just came out of her mouth as I finished writing that last sentence. About 5 minutes ago she was complaining to her daughter about the phone call that didn’t go the way she thought it would… she was talking about EPO’s and different “accounts” and how she tarnished her reputation, etc.
The little girl is pretending her hardest to be interested in what her mom is venting about. She affirms her mom’s complaints with melancholy comments like “yeah” and “that’s how I feel in english class”. She is sitting here, right across from me, with her hair in front of her face and hand on her mouth… staring off into space. I feel so bad for her. She’s desperate for her mom’s attention and affection…. but her mom is too desperate to succeed in her career to notice her daughter’s loneliness.
The career-driven mom isn’t getting what she’s desperate for. And her daughter is suffering for it.
These people just don’t see, and can’t see, that they’re despairing for things that won’t satisfy. The older woman, older man, and mother of this poor little girl all have such a visible emptiness in them that they are trying so hard to fill up. They want to fill it up with attention, affirmation, money, work, sex, etc…. and even if they attain the things they’re chasing after, the insatiable hunger to try and find something to fill the emptiness will rise up again. The satisfaction searched for in the things of this world (the lust of the flesh and the pride in possessions) will always prove temporary. The desperation in the human heart will always rise again when only numbed by created things. That desperation that every human possesses is satisfiable only by the eternal God, Jesus Christ. The problem is that sin has severed God and us and it is so evident in the life and actions of every unregenerate, unbelieving human being.
- People want purpose.
- People want passion.
- People want love.
———————————People want God…. but at the same time they don’t.
They want the things that only God can give them, but they don’t want to adhere to Him. They want to remain “lord” of their lives and have God be their butler. We can not, I repeat can not, receive the benefits of God apart from acknowledging and submitting to the reality of who He is. But oh how dark the human heart is. The unbelieving soul would rather do the evils it desires and figure out it’s own way to achieve peace and joy…. apart from God. It assumes itself more knowledgeable than God. It assumes itself wiser than God. Most people would never admit this, but the indifference to Jesus in their lives is a greater witness to the state of their soul than any words could ever be.
You can try to do it your own way… live this life according to your wisdom, desires and intuition. But you will always remain desperate. At the end of every day, you’re failure to provide yourself true joy and peace will be undeniably before you.
Come to Jesus. Be desperate for Him…. because He will always satisfy you the way you were made to be satisfied. Experience the rest that is in Him. The rest from your dead works, your vain attempts to achieve true satisfaction….and the destruction that your sins have brought into your life. See Christ as He is…. Lord and God…. and see yourself as your are…. but dust. Submit to Him. God’s call for you to repent is not Him trying to rob joy from you…. but Him calling you to drop the rotting carcus of sin you’ve been carrying around and pick up the true treasure that He is. He wants to give you life, not take it from you. Trust Him.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.”- John 10:10