Two years ago today (at about 3 A.M. this morning), my life began to transform in ways I would have never expected…. or would’ve never even asked for. Most people reading this will already be familiar with my testimony from either hearing it by video, podcast, radio or just word of mouth…. but for those of you who don’t know, my conversion experience didn’t begin with me straightening myself up and coming to church—it began right in the midst of my sin.
When the Lord opened my eyes and put life inside of me, I wasn’t on my knees at the front of an altar or reading the Bible or praying—I wasn’t seeking God or inviting Him into my heart or even pondering the possibility of “change.” I was dancing at a gay bar. That’s where I was when God called me, once and for all, out of darkness and into light—at the gay bar. I was drinking excessively, trying to black-out (like I was used to doing when I drank), but for some reason I just couldn’t get to “that level” on this night. Something was different… I felt weird. Around 3.am., while on the dance floor, I became overwhelmed, out of nowhere, with a sense of……. awareness?? It’s hard to really describe what I felt….. you could call it embarrassment….or shame. But this thought just struck my mind:
“Matt, what are you doing?”
This picture was taken on the night I’m speaking of. I don’t post it to glorify my sin—but as a very real reminder of how far away from the Lord I was—-and how He came into my life this night anyway.
Now I didn’t fall on my knees in the middle of the gay bar and repent or anything like that—I didn’t even know what was going on. I just felt weird… I felt off. I knew I didn’t want to be at that bar anymore so I left just a few minutes later—not knowing that it would be the last time I would walk out of there. Over the next month I started talking with some Christians that I knew, reading the Bible, found a church, started listening to preaching……all very, very foreign things to me. Everything was changing. Everything. I didn’t want to be the person that I had been. I wanted to be different. I wanted to be new.
I didn’t know this at the time, but… I already was new.
Whoever you are reading this, perhaps someone who unwillingly stumbled across this blog as you were googling something else……you probably think I’m absolutely psychotic. That’s okay. You might be thinking (especially if you knew me personally in the past), “Why would a perfectly capable, well-liked, gay guy just “decide” one day he didn’t want to pursue his natural desire to other men anymore?” Unless you believe in the God of Christianity, there’s no explanation I can give you that would satisfy you. But just hear me out on one thing: If for some reason you’re ever in a place where you see your need for change, your need for saving, your need for God…..please know that He isn’t waiting on you to get yourself right or fix yourself or for you to figure everything out. He’ll meet you right where you are—-even if it’s on the dance floor at a gay bar at 3 a.m. I didn’t go tidy myself up and change my behavior then head toward the front of an altar saying, “Jesus, I’m clean, I stopped doing this and this and this…please accept me!”….. no. He came right down into my lost-ness and said “I accept you. Now be clean.”
Lord knows I’ve stumbled over the past two years, splitting my face open on the rocks of my sin. But my God has not left me. He is faithful even when I’m faithless—always saturating my heart with His grace and leading me into repentance….. repentance AND joy.
I’m thankful for this day… the day (to my knowledge) the Lord began a good work in me. I’m grasping hold of this promise tonight:
“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.”- Phillipians 1:6
Thanks for your blogs, Matt. They’re interesting and helpful
Hey Matt, wonderful testimony. I got saved at 13, I dont have a story quite as ‘dramatic’ as yours leading up to my salvation. I live in a country where homosexuality is a criminal offence punishable with a minimum custodial sentence of 15 years so you can probably tell that we are from divergent cultures. I usually dont have to deal with some of the questions that are raised about homosexuality as much as you do but we thank God for how he is using you. That aside, what jumps out at me from your story is really the fact that we are sinners saved by the grace of God. Our salvation has nothing to do with who we are in and of ourselves or in any way at all but it has everything to do with God all the way from first to last, his goodness, his mercy, his love his grace.
amen!!!!!
<3 rejoicing with you brother!!! Praise God!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He is transformer, healer & Savior!! Because of Jesus, we are clothed in righteousness. We are redeemed!!!
Amen ! Thanku for sharing … I don’t need to know your whole story to know God forgives all our sins !! I’m praying for the direction I need to take in my life right now.
How do you know this inner voice wasn’t simply questioning why you were being self-destructive (however it was being manifested in your life)?
Matt
Wonderful story on how you were found by God and his son Jesus Christ. It is great that you are no longer in that lifestyle, but are now serving God in spirit and truth (John 4:24). Keep the great posts coming.
Praise God! I join the angels in rejoicing over you. Be stedfast, unmoveable; always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as you know that your labor is not in vain in the Lord. Amen!
What a Savior!
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God is great – always doing a new thing.
Thank you for your encouraging testimony!! Be praying for you that God will fill you with his power and wisdom so you can be a witness of his Grace
Thank you for sharing this, Matt! Very inspiring!
I had nearly the same experience, only i was a Christian and started going out to the gay bars. I was becoming totally swept up into it when one night I came home about 4 am, and sitting on my couch, I told the Lord I could no longer be a Christian, and to just let me go. Instantly, He shot back that He loved me and He would never let me go. I laid there for the next hour weeping. I had never expereinced that kind of uncondtional love before.
I stopped going to the gay bars and today I serve as an elder in my church. The road has not been easy, but His love motivates me to rest in his power to help me endure until the end.
Hi Matt,
I will probably never meet you in person here on earth. But think about the long conversations that we may have during eternity hereafter.
May both of us, as well as other christians reading your blog, stand fast and pray that we may not repeat our sinful past.
bravo
Thank You Matt for blessing us always. God is with you all the way through. You have my respect and admiration, even if you stumble. Keep it up my friend! ;D
I had a similar experience at the bar; so I know it’s true. I haven’t been back since. In fact, just this past weekend and an old friend who’s still in the life and a bartender, invited me to the club; placed me on the guest list and free drinks. I said, “No” and told him to be careful. It’s moments like that I know I’m doing just fine.
Matt – thanks for sharing that. It’s inspirational. A very similar thing happened when God stepped in and told me I had to stop drinking alcohol.
Thanks for sharing Matt, you are a great encouragement.
what is immposible for man its possible for GOD! u are free now……………….. THANKS BE TO JESUS!
poor guy. you were lost then, at the bar, but just as lost now in the discourse of god, sin and sexuality. Being human is a tough road, to be sure..
Very cool. This is my SAME story. I remember being by the dance floor, hearing “what are you doing here? You don’t belong here.” I felt so out of place at my gay club that had become a second home over the last three plus years. That was 21 years ago. Married 16 years with a 12 yr old son and 11 yr old daughter and a vibrant ‘exgay’ ministry http://www.truthministry.org. Praise Him who is able to bring all those to Himself. Thank you for being one of us rare few that bare it all, following His call on our lives. Don’t let the haters get you down.
Keep touching lives Matt and may God richly bless the seeds that you sow!
it’s really sad the way you speak against people who never did anything wrong to you…
Ed
He isn’t speaking against any people. He was just telling the world about the epiphany that he received when he was at the Gay bar three years ago. What makes you think that in the first place?
Matt happens to be a very loving and kind young man who is also a fine Christian brother. Matt doesn’t speak against nobody or people in general. He is speaking out against that sinful lifestyle that he left behind three years ago to embrace the lord and deciding to do what God wants him to do rather than live the rest of his life in sin and misery. That is all that he is doing and it is nothing personal against anyone at all either.
I still remember my last night in the gay bar. I’m so glad Jesus set me free. 15 years later Im married to a wonderful man and have two girls. God is Good! Keep up the good work Matt
@Matt
I wish you well my brother. I am truly happy for you Matt.
God bless!
(…with that said, we need to work on that wardrobe: A black vest accented with floral embroidery…seriously…like are we getting discounts at ‘Target’ here?…and those jeans: any self-respecting metrosexual male knows that everybody who is anybody wears Dolce & Gabbana denim…not LEVI’S…like OMG. No worries, u r still young and there is yet time to redeem ur ‘wardrobe malfunction’; I got ur back bud!)
LOL!
it’s funny that you guys are talking about something so popular within the gay community lol…
Dude. You are gay. You will always be gay. You will never be happy with a woman because you don’t like them in that way, only as friends. Please stop trashing other people because you’re jealous they can be who they are without fear or oppression.
@ Anthony
There is no such thing as a Homosexual/Gay man, just the Homosexual condition, which is an emotional and developmental disorder that has nothing to do with sex. The Holy Bible states that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is unacceptable and inappropriate. Plus, each and every one of us is biologically hard-wired for male/female compatibility. God made man and woman, Adam and Eve, for a reason as he only approves of healthy and happy Heterosexuality and accepts no substitutes.
Plus, there are many former Homosexuals who later embraced the truth about our Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ and after leaving and abandoning that sinful sexual lifestyle connected with Homosexuality who are now happily married to members of the opposite gender and also have families. Anyone can change as people can change. We can change ourselves, but we can’t change others.
Something to think about.
AWESOME BEAUTIFUL STORY..thanks for sharing ..I have a great story to tell to but I have never been good at organizing my thoughts ..or spelling or puntuation..but the doctors told my parents when I was born with a tumor on my lower spine ..called a menigisil..that I would have brain swelling and wouldn’t be able to walk and would be retarted I was the 3% that came out completley normal except ADD ..But that’s No biggie..at age 7 moved in with my mom and step dad ..step father was the most evil man in the world .beat me and verbally abused me daily .wet the bed daily since being with them and my step father would beat me for this if I didn’t take a shower in less then 5 min I was not allowed to shower for a week and smelled like urine at school so the kids picked on me also had a lot of bladder infections all the time and urine reflux back up into my kidneys was told I would lose my kidneys one day it was just a matter of when .I was taken to church at the age of 10 and given a best freind and hope I would talk tp him every moment of everyday ask him to please help me make it through each day with out abuse from anyone ..I was happy about any good in my life felt blessed seeing anything God does from the leaves on the trees to the animals to the birds singing to us everything God made for us to enjoy and appreciate .I would make up songs and sing to him as I walked through nature and all he created ..Nature gave me peace because he made and sustains it all ..so I am a small fragment of what he has made and he Will take care of me also..I never worried grateful in all things ..praised him out of every fiber of my being he gave me joy and peace and walked everyday of my life with me I was made to live in my room a whole in my bed No sheets smelled like urine No toys only one teddy bear I hugged a lot and a radio I got one ear for christmus I sang to and cried a lot in my room ..I wasn’t aloud to eat with others only after my family ate I could leave my room to eat and use the bathroom I was made to sleep on the bathroom floor around the toilet to make sure I didn’t wet the bed ..my sheets when I was given them I had to wash by hand until they bled rinsing the water out..and had to hang them up to dry even when we had a washer and dryer ..this life became normal it taught me that there is NOTHING I couldn’t go through but as a child growing up it was hard feeling unloved ..God gave me all I needed .I cried out to him a lot asking him why he made me to love others so much and to have a big heart when everyone..crushes it .I begged him to harden my heart make it smaller but he had a plan for it and me I never saw all the while molding me into the person I was suppose to be ..I am a medical asst..now wanting to go to nursing school ..when my husband can sustain us finacially ..so that I can ..I have a love for others that No one understands I passion to tale care of others..that is soooo strong..I was told that my kidneys couldn’t sustain a child God gave me a girl she is healthy and almost 17 perfect in everyway and the doctors couldn’t believe she didn’t harm my kidneys at all ..I named her Aaliyah it means a special blessing I had No idea until she was 6 months old a Jewish women in a nursing home told me I lost feeling in my knees and legs because it showed me God had a plan and a name for her..I went through two kidney transplants first from my sister who was Completly compatible..but my body rejected it before I left the hospital when on dialisis for 1.5 yrs..and then my Mom gave me hers ..it was an INCOMPATIBLE TRANSPLANT..because my sister has half of my Mom in her genes.and I had already built up antibodys against them both..God made it work almost 5 yrs in Dec. And Completly healed..PRAISING GOD he is so AWESOME ..I am forever humble and grateful for every moment of everyday ..I have a perfect daughter and husband and family.that cared enough to give a huge part of themselves to give me life again..and for my step dad he killed himself..what you give to others is what you recieve to GOD BE THE GLORY FOR ALL THE THINGS HE HAS DONE..HN
Happy anniversary. Keep sharing the new life that can only be found through Jesus Christ!
Matt:
I found out 2 weeks ago that my 30 year old son says he is gay. I was devistated. I screamed, I cried, I was so embarassed, I had no idea. I knew that he would go to a bar and meet friends on weekends. I asked him if he ever met girls that he liked at these bars. He gave me a funny look and said, “I am not attracted to girls.” I said, “W-H-A-T — are you telling me that you are gay?” He said, “YES”. I found out that the bar he has been going to a Gay Bar.
I do not how to handle this. I told him that I was very upset about this and that I could not accept it (knowing that it is completely against my beliefs). Mind you, my son was in church every Sunday when he lived at home and he accepted Christ at a very young age (7 or 8 years old). I reminded him that the Bible says that marriage is suppose to be between one man and one woman and that being gay is wrong and unacceptable to God. I told him that if God said that being Gay is OK, then the Bible would be contradictary. It is not contradictary — it is the true Word of God — one man and one woman.
I have thought about talking to my pastor about how to handle this and how can I try to make my son change his ways; but I am embarassed for even my pastor to find out or if it gets out to other members of my church. What will they think and say behind my back?
I pray that (as happened to you) that my son will find God again at 3 AM in a Gay Bar or anywhere else for that matter. Please pray with me that he will realize that this lifestyle is wrong and will come back to God.
I am so happy to hear that you found your way to God and I pray that my son will find his way back to God.
Anita
Anita
There is nothing that you can do to sway him away. If you try to do that, you will only be frustrating yourself and that can lead other mental strains and stress. The only things that you can do is to encourage him to give Christ another try and while doing that, pray incessantly without ceasing while encouraging him.
The only thing that I can encourage you to do is to look into his life as he was growing up. How was his relationship with his father? Was it a good relationship where your son was loved by him unconditionally or was it a strained relationship where his father was distant and really didn’t show him any love? Also, do you know if he was ever sexually abused by any older trusted male be it a neighbor or relative? I only asked these questions because the root cause of my struggles with Homosexuality were caused by my father, who never really showed me any love and all I got was his physical and emotional abuse, including the legalistic way that he was with me, while at the same time professing to be a “Born-Again” or “non-denominated” Christian. Plus, I was sexually abused as well. A man who lived in my neighborhood masturbated in front of me when I was 7 years of age. At 10 years of age, a 16 year old kid talked me into performing oral sex on him, but the worst case was when I was was 16, when another man who lived in my neighborhood raped me by trying to force his genitals up my rectum without using a condom. There were also other instances when I was used by other males for their own pleasure and that all screwed me up. There was also peer rejection in my early years and also, I was the victim of bullying as well. I am sorry for the length of this, but I had a lot to share with you.
Anita, before talking about this with your pastor, make it a matter of prayer to God and ask him for guidance on how to approach this with your pastor and also, ask him for strength to deal with what to do if and/or when the other members of your church find out. Plus, you can hope and pray that they will be supportive of this and offer some Christian love and Christian emotional support. God will help you in how to say and what to say when the time comes. I revealed to my pastor all about my struggles and he was very supportive and also was an elder in the church alongside him. I also shared this with other men that I meet with once a month and they too were very supportive. You never know.
By the way, only your son can change himself. Only he can make the move to change. He can only change himself and nobody else. Only he can make that big step to change and turn away from that sinful and destructive sexual lifestyle. Nobody else can do that for him except him. You can encourage him along the way, but only he can make the move and the decision to change.
Keep praying and maybe one day, your son will return to God. You can also exercise patience while continuing to pray for your son.
Thanks for posting and I hope and pray that everything works out.
Dear Anita,
Just a few short remarks. You are going to have to be very careful now. In fact, be wise as a serpent and harmless as a dove. If you descend on your son like a ton of bricks continually all you will achieve is to push him away. He knows how you feel (and what the Bible says) about this issue – so don’t continually bring it up. You need to show him love now like never before. The fact that you appear more worried about the embarrassment this is going to cause you with the church folk than your son’s immortal soul worries me. God is going to use this to deepen your personal relationship with Him – so trust in Him.
My parents had to spend a great many years on their knees before I gave up the gay life and came to Christ – so you need to persevere. I knew their feelings about the issue and what the Bible said about it – so they never spoke to me about homosexuality being wrong. What they did do was live the Christian life – the REAL Christian life. I saw the love and compassion they showed others – whilst never backing down on their principles. I didn’t see the hypocrisy that is rampant in today’s ‘Christians’. Frank is right – you can not change your son. Neither can he change himself. But God can do what we can’t. I, Matt and many others are living proof of this.
What you need to focus on now is not your son. You need to focus on YOUR relationship with God. God can and will use this for the good. Although I lived pretty far from God for a great many years He has used all the ‘wrong’ to glorify Himself and help many other people. I encourage you to spend some time reading around this blog to educate yourself. Read the comments as well – so that you may see what a good cross section of people have to say about this issue – I believe you will learn a lot.
Love your son, trust in God. Never lose hope.
Be blessed!
Sarel
Anita,
Your son is blessed to have parents who care so much about him. Who pray for him every day. So MANY guys like us have come to God. There’s always hope. :]
Hey Michael!
So glad to see you’re still around – I regularly pray for you and Jay. I am always aware that Jesus said that we are as lambs sent out amongst wolves. But if we shelter under the shadow of the Almighty we are protected!
Hope things are going well and stay strong in the Lord dude!
Sarel
Sarel,
Thank you for the prayers. It means SO much! So many things in my life are changing all around. The wall that’s between me and my Dad is starting to come down. Some of the things I thought was true turned out to be misunderstandings. And Jay and I ended our relationship. Have I been an emotional loony tune over that! Now I’m packing up and moving sooner that planned. I need Jesus more than ever right now! Oh! God is so good to me.
I hope things are well with you too, my brother. :]
Michael
Dear Michael,
I understand about the breaking up. When I was called I was in in a 7 year relationship, 4 of which was in a civil partnership. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do – and yet I never doubted that it was the right thing to do and regretted it. But for a while there many tears were shed. Just know this – you can trust in Jesus Christ to stand by you – in good times and in bad. Just continue to trust in Him – He has a plan for you and will get you where you need to be.
I am delighted that you and your dad are patching things up. Me and my dad have also grown a lot closer since I came to Christ. There really has been a lot of healing going on – inside of me as well as in my relationships.
Please always feel free to contact me if you need to talk and know that you (and Jay) will continue to be in my prayers. I’ve been commenting on Matt’s site for months and you were the first person to give his life to Jesus – and in such an amazing way! I honestly just started crying when I read what had happened. I will always treasure the memory of being a witness of God’s amazing grace in your life.
Be brave and know that the love of Jesus will carry you always, my brother!
Sarel
Sarel,
Could you tell me more about how you dealt with breaking up with the guy you were with? Are you still friends? Please email me – mikeyjett747@gmail.com
Michael
Response to Frank:
You asked about my son’s relationship with his father. We have always been a close knit family. My husband and I have been married 43 years. We were both always a part of our son’s lives. We both have had unconditional love for both our sons through the years. We both attended all the sporting events and band concerts and weekly marching at the football games, etc. from elementary through high school. Several times a year, my husband and sons will go to a movie and see some kind of war type movie or one with fighting scenes that I don’t care to see. We call it “Father & Sons Day”. Also recently, the three of them went to a rifle range and shot guns for about 4 hours on a Saturday morning. They have always gotten along great with each other. Both of my sons were Eagle Scouts and my husband and I went to a lot of the yearly family campouts and I helped with fundraising and other aspects of scouting through the years. My husband would go on some of the monthly campouts with the scouts. We were both involved.
To my knowledge, my son has never been sexually, physically, or emotionally abused. He has had a great life. He was on the Honor Roll in school and college, received an Engineering Degree in college and currently has a great job. He was never bullied that I know of. He had lots of friends in school, he was first chair clairinet player in the band. Usually kids in a band are very close with each other. They spend so much time with each other in all their practices and travelling to concerts and football games. He was an all-round good kid. I never had any problems with him.
I am sorry for all the abuse you suffered throughout your childhood, but to my knowledge (and I think that my son would have told my husband or I) my son has never been abused in any way.
I am also thankful that you had a lot of support from your pastor, an elder and the other men that you have shared your story with. If you don’t mind me asking, how did your parents take the news (especially your Mom) when you came out to them? This was so devistating to me knowing that my sons were raised in the church and I tried to teach them right from wrong. I felt like I had failed as a Mother. I kept asking myself where my husband and I had gone wrong. I don’t know how to handle this news or how to deal with it. I would be courious to know who your Mother handled it.
Thanks for your words of encouragement and taking the time to reply. Yes, I have spent hours in prayer and crying myself to sleep at night. I probably eventually go and talk to my pastor. I am just trying to get a handle on it myself first.
Response to Sarel:
I also want to thank you for your response. I don’t know how parents can help but being embarassed when they learn about their son’s new lifestyle. Like I told Frank in my response to him, I felt like I had failed as a Mother. Where did I go wrong? My sons were raised in the church and were taught right from wrong. This is totally against God’s word (A marriage or dating prior to marriage, is suppose to be between one man and one woman). How did he “fall off the wagon”? These are my thoughts when I first heard the news. I have had church friends that are embarrased and devistated when their kids perhaps become alcoholics or drug addicts. Maybe their kids robbed a bank or such. These kids too were raised in church and for some reason choose to stray away from God. I saw the embarrasment that these parents felt when the news of their kids indiscretions was found out. The statement that you said about me not being concerned about my son’s immortal soul is completely false. I am deeply concerned for his soul — so much so, that I pray continuously and cry myself to sleep each night thinking and praying for him.
My husband and I are deeply involved in our church every week. My husband is a Deacon and has been since he was about 25 years old (40 years total now). We have NEVER “NOT” been in church in our entire 43 years of marriage. We will continue to remain faithful and pray that our son will find his way back to God and change his ways.
I am happy that you gave up the gay lifestyle and came back to God. With God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE and I pray that my son will give up this lifestyle as you have done. God Bless You and thanks for your response and words of encouragement.
Anita
Anita,
If I might add my “two cents” into this conversation… I’d like to suggest that you pull back on putting blame on anyone, other than satan. As much as we want to feel that we’ve protected our children, the truth is, satan is a roaring lion roaming and devouring. It is only through the power of Jesus that any of us will overcome. Satan is trying to destroy your son through homosexuality, he is also trying to destroy you over self inflicted blame and helplessness…which could lead to your questioning God, in the long run. Keep up conversation and prayer! Keep up your strong countenance and faith! May you grow deeper in the understanding of sin and of the power of God through this encounter and not grow weary in being overcome by the adversary.
Thank you Gene. Let’s pray that my son will overcome the realm of Satan and return to God.
Matt,
…another wonderful attestation supporting your decision to follow God, which opened the door for God to reveal His written testimonies to you and to others through you! We should all be as honest as to the failings we have gone through and the struggles with sin that so readily plague us every day. The more investment we make in God the less the skirmishes will haunt us even though they may never leave us, altogether. Being willing to stand up and be counted-in when God “calls” is definitely both challenging and liberating.
Anita,
I know your pain. One thing that has helped me as a mother is knowing that Adam and Eve were as perfect as any human parents could be and they still had Cain. I don’t mean to compare homosexuality to murder, but the point is you can’t take too much blame. We live in a fallen world. Sarel is right, God wants you focus on your relationship with Him right now. One book I might recommend it “When homosexuality hits home” by Joe Dallas.
Don’t lose hope, there is always hope as long as your son is alive. And truly, only God knows his heart. If he truly accepted Christ as child, Jesus is not going to let him go despite his falling into this.
I will remember you in my prayers.
Thank you for your words of encouragement and your prayers. AND thanks for recommending the book by Joe Dallas. I am trying to get up the courage of talking to my Pastor, but I hate for the word about my son to even get out to him. This coming Sunday, my pastor is talking about the runaway child and maybe he will touch on the subject of gay lifestyle. I was waiting to talk to him until after he preaches this message.
Anita
What an incredible testimony. That the Spirit indeed still moves and convicts as He will. You’re an inspiration to boldly proclaim the miracles Christ still works in lives today. Much love brother, and many more spiritual birthdays/anniversaries to come
I’m just a Christian reading all sorts of tesimmonies and in this day and age with the onslaught of “anything goes” where you cannot barely say what you think about these matter without being met with outrage and onslaught of hate, it is SO inspiring to read all ppl’s testimonies here. KEEP the FAITH. God Bless.
Why does do toy say God came to you to change you from tot NATURAl desire. He created each of you. A very code friend chritian looked ro god foe guidance. Dating women. Active on his fsirh. Ir led him to dispair. And oath to his natural desire. He is/dis not CHOOSE to have affection for same sex anymore than the heterosexual attraction for any and elever man/wmen. I mat interpret but hetero/Joni sex without “love” is no difference. Bible refers to homosexual prostitutes. We give these gay men no opportunity for relationships. God has created our path. You think my friend choses to be cast away. Whispered about ect ect. I DON’T THINK SO