God, through the gospel of Jesus Christ, meets all of our spiritual and emotional needs: the need to feel loved, pursued, affirmed, wanted, secure, joyful and purposed—-it’s all found in Christ. I don’t know about you, but it can be hard for me to continually believe that. I have moments when it’s so clear to me that I am whole in Christ….. but I have many other moments where I doubt, fear and find that what I “feel” contradicts everything I see in Scripture.
Over the last year, I’ve noticed in my own life that the driving force behind my sinful behaviors is almost always me trying to meet the needs of my soul myself. In moments of stress, loneliness or self pity, I find that I tend to be resistant toward the promises of God in Christ. Jesus says, “Come to me, you who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest for your soul”—-but for some reason, namely my stupidity, sometimes I find it hard to rest in Jesus and find it easier to fulfill my needs myself. Whether that be in the way of the sensual pleasure of pornography, or seeking affirmation and attention from people in sinful ways, etc., I try to find my own way of satisfaction instead of finding rest in believing that I have continual affirmation, love, security and purpose from God in Jesus Christ.
“Belief” tends to sound so passive, but I find that I have continually fight to believe. I know that can start to sound like works-based salvation, but I assure you that’s not what I mean. I’m not talking about doing works to be saved… but rather, fighting for the position of my heart to be right before God. I have to fight, by the power of the Spirit, to subject my heart in faithful belief to God and His Word. And when I say “by the power of the Spirit”, I’m not just throwing that in there to sound biblical. The Spirit must help me to find rest in believing God, or it will not happen. Realizing this has been vital for me. I’ve experienced so much power in really being in desperation for the Spirit to come into me and do what I can’t do.
My best weapon against Satan, the enticement of the world, and my flesh is to desperately throw myself on the mercies of God in Christ and beg for His Spirit to enable to my heart to believe all that He has revealed about Himself and His love for me in Christ. This is what I mean by fighting to meet my needs in the gospel.