I’ve been aware of pro-gay theology from early on in my walk with The Lord. Almost immediately upon revealing my repentance from my same sex desires, my email inbox was flooded with messages from people presenting to me a ‘new’ interpretation of the Scriptures that did not forbid or condemn homosexual behavior within the context of a monogamous relationship.
A life of being without God in this world is a life of hopelessness. It’s an existence of chasing after one thing after another after another, to try to maintain the happiness high. It doesn’t work. Happiness in this world cant be sustained. It can be experienced in spurts…..but then it evaporates, only to leave you hanging in deeper despair and looking for another way to chase it.
I think even after coming to faith in Christ, I have continued chasing after happiness in and of itself rather than chasing after Christ and finding happiness a thing to be contained in Him. And that’s why I keep going back to old idols for satisfaction…….because I’m dissatisfied with the results of my chasing.
Don’t hear me wrong….I know God wants me happy. I know He doesn’t want me miserable and moping about. But He wants me happy in Him, not in anything else. He doesn’t want me happy in happiness for happiness’ sake (if that makes sense), He wants me happy in Him. I need to chase after Christ for Christ and not use Him as means to an end. I think when I make Christ and only Christ my object of pursuit, and not just happiness, I will find the satisfaction I crave. As a regenerated Child of God, I’ve received capacities for satisfaction that can’t be curbed by anything less than God, Himself.
I think that I have yet to believe in my heart that God, in and of Himself, is sufficient to satisfy me to the highest level. So I haven’t sought after him with my whole heart. I’ve sought, for sure. But maybe only half heartedly or just enough to achieve a little contentment….I’ve sought enough to put depression at bay, but not enough to be filled with the fullness of God. I want to be filled with the fullness of God. I want to want Christ more than I want happiness because I know that only then can true happiness be grasped.
No real conclusion to this post. Just want to express in writing what’s been on me the last couple of days.
“To be continued…”
As of recently, the reality of this theology arising within certain denominations has hit much closer to home, motivating me to speak out more about it and to try and provide some solid resources.
Please remember that deceit is subtle, or it wouldn’t be deceit. Just a small twist of the truth here or there can have massive, eternal, consequences.
This article was written by Joe Dallas, of whom I’m sure many of you are familiar with. You can click “Scriptural Arguments” at the top of the page to bring you down to that section: http://www.narth.com/docs/dallas.html