Matt, I have been in communication with you before. You might want to get honest about where you are in your “recovery”. Let me know if I can help you. We can have a frank discussion, you could use some honest input. Kathy
Thank you, Sir. Your story has proved to me, finally, that this Jesus crap isn’t real. I’m now a happy and healthy and loving gay atheist. The powerful image of your self-delusions tipped me over the edge. You’re a pathetic man, Sir, but I thank you for your help, however unintentional on your part.
Matt, your mishap was just shown to me. We’ve ALL screwed up! I’ll email you tomorrow. Exodus leaders and our ministry are praying for you and want to encourage you in The Lord and with our care and concern for you. No one’s perfect. I’m glad you owned up to it. Move forward in Him. I would encourage you to seek Him for His grace. By the little I’ve read (need to and will read more), you’ve already started.
You have chapter and verse Gene that says God doesn’t love gays or anyone else? Seriously, your chapter and verses out of context have no meaning. Learn the scripture.
The posters on this page who seek to discouraged you and somehow seek to justified their lifestyle choices do not know what the bible says about sin. One it says that sin naturally dwells in us and we were made aware of it when we were made aware of the truth. We naturally sin and our feeling have been corrupted by our sin natural even though we have some ability to do good and etc. The reality is that regeneration in Christ did not eliminated the sin struggle but gave us a new power the Spirit of God living us. It is a war in us but we have been the guarantee of victory. Satan will fight us ferociously and the sin nature will demand its control over us. This is why is it so difficult at times and Paul warn us that we must fight dead to this old self which seeks dominion over us.The world are spiritual zombies naturally driven to want to silence any person that may bring into question their sinful choices so naturally they will mock and seek to dissuade you from your new walk in Christ. They want you to return to their path to eternal death which awaits anyone who has rejected Christ’s gift of salvation.
I hope someday you will find the acceptance and love that I feel towards every gay friend I have. I wish I could give you a hug right now. I wish I could show you what I feel of God’s love. I know you are fighting to do what is right in God’s eyes and that is admirable, but it’s hard for me to imagine that God with all his infinite wisdom and love would want you to live a life that makes you feel so depressed by rejecting a part of you that you can’t control or change. I also don’t consider homosexuality a sin. I can’t change you or your beliefs so I’m not going to try, but I hope you know that tonight a random stranger will send a prayer for you that you can find happiness and peace in your life, in what ever way God wills it.
I am a muslim and I just want to let you know that although you may have some attractions towards men, God will forgive you as longs as you do not act upon them. I know it is probably really difficult for you because it is your heart that may be desiring the attention and affection and so forth, but reassure yourself by knowing that this is all a test for you. I am a girl but I am not gay and I have been in love with a guy for the past year however, I have stirred away from being close to him because I do not want to raise any temptations. I hope one day maybe he will come back to me. Anyhow, remember God/Allah tests those he loves the most so just have patience. I hope you will be at ease soon, and I will be praying for you
Matt – I really feel sorry for you…or I would if your actions weren’t so dangerous. There is nothing wrong with you and you are committing no sin by being gay. You are a pathetic role model. Have you read the lies and misinformation of your supporters? Really, Matt, if you “chose” to be gay, why is it so damn hard to “un” choose it. I’ll tell you why. It’s NOT a choice, it is a integral aspect of the human experience. We are not living in the 13th century. The only life being ruined here is yours.
PEric70: Exactly. I actually think that although Matt may believe in God, and there’s nothing wrong with that, he also knows that he’s not changing. This is really just an attempt at attracting attention to himself. I mean why would someone conflicted actually post the SAME picture on Grindr as what they use on their Christian blog? So many people in these comments are so homophobic and ignorant of their own Christian faith that their comments reflect how far we as a society must go to understand God’s love and His perfection in each of us. The Christ like responses on here are few and far between as most simply choose to reiterate the same message of what scripture say about men with men and giving NO merit to the culture, civilization, writer or translation of those scriptures. If many here would devote as much energy towards the heterosexual issue of divorce (which probably reflects about 50% of those making comments) that the bible prohibits they’d be doing some justice. Oh I know, that’s a taboo subject because only certain scripture passages are up for debate. Please, hypocrites that should be thrown out of the temple!
personally, when i came out to my parents at 18 they sent me to courage which was an offshoot from exodus.
they were actually a splinter group who said that jesus taught a personal morality based on love. that, for some, they may end up marrying a woman and having a pretty much heterosexual lifestyle. for others, they may have a natural inclination towards abstinence. but then, for others, they may end up in a committed same sex relationship whereas others may not be able to do that and end up with multiple partners. what they did teach, however, was that in all your dealings with others you must act out of love. using other people to try to make yourself feel better is selfish. loving other people is not.
going there saved me from thinking that i had to hate myself for the rest of my life or turn my back on my christian upbringing. their teaching pretty much informs most of my thinking now (so many years later). quite simply (be it in the way i talk to the person serving me in a coffee shop or the way i talk to people who perhaps i don’t even like that much), i try to think 1st ‘am i acting out of love towards this person or not?’.
personally, i do not think jesus cared at all if you were gay or not (i mean look at the company he kept!). he didn’t say love the sinner hate the sin, he only ever loved the sinner. i lead a pretty boring life – i’m training to become a piano tuner and my boyfriend works in a sex shop. i do a 6 day week and hardly ever go out as i’m too knackered most the time. i’ve got an extended group of friends and it’s a very caring group of people. it’s not perfect of course but i see a lot of love that i recognise from my church days. just because people don’t believe in jesus does not mean that they do not or are incapable of love.
the more i’ve looked into it the more i’ve found that so much homophobia comes not from straight people but from self hating gays. i mean the tele evangelist caught with a rent boy in a toilet is so much of a news staple that it’s a cliché nowadays. and it’s not a coincidence. you hate in others what you most dislike about yourself.
i’m not going to tell you what to do. you have to find your own way through the world. i hope you find happiness and love and fulfilment as that’s the most you can wish for for someone on this planet.
what i am hearing is a confusion between sexual addiction, and sexual identity. for instance we all have certain sexual images that push our buttons of arousal which can be just as syntillating as orgasm itself. but we dont love those images we have no emotional intimacy with those images we have no lasting actual living experiences with those images. why would we choose to have sexually erotic relationships with these images at the expense of having them with an actual living person who we know and love? im talking about a bonded relationship with another person out of mutual love, respect, devotion, affection, trust, attraction, that could possibly lead to a shared committed relationship. answering the why question is about dealing with addiction?
whether you are attracted to the same sex or opposite sex, its about physicalities. as a believer in christ, i know of no physicalities that account for anything under the new covenant, spirit accounting for everything. i know you believe differently, but are unable to explain how.
consider that in being of your faith that jesus who you have faith in lives in you. he has moved in his furniture and books, put in his carpets and curtains, and pictures and lives in you. the truth , the life, and the way lives in you. his healing power lives in you. his life giving loves lives in you. all you will ever need eternally lives in you.
in the words of paul………………..my prayers are that you thru his grace will continue to grow in the knowledge of how high, how wide , how deep is his love in whatever trials he has allowed you to experience. god bless you.
I am over here–can’t believe I had tears running down my cheeks reading your articles and your testimony. With so many phony people out there, the realness of you, your clear walk with Christ and your strength is amazing.
One thing I want to say is that you are not alone. I have never struggled with homosexual feelings in my own walk, but that does not mean I don’t struggle with other sexual thoughts, etc. In all honesty, our society has become so entrenched in sex and in self-gratification, it is a wonder anyone can remain pure! Sometimes, I want to shut off the TV, disable the computer, to shield my eyes from all the filth perpetrating this world.
Homosexuality is not the only sinful lifestyle a Christian can struggle with. For some it is pornography, for others it’s drunkenness, still others it’s idolatry: to money, or a spouse or a career. As a woman, I hear constantly that men struggle with sexual sin (as if women don’t! haha). Some women may indeed struggle with pornography, but many also struggle with romance/erotic books (as we women tend to be very emotionally driven). In fact, going into a bookstore these days can be downright embarrassing passing by shelf after shelf of erotica.
I guess what I am trying to say is sin is everywhere, homosexual or otherwise–be you a man or woman.
You are not alone in your struggle. And it appears, from your testimony, that you have given your life over to God. You may not see it now, but I think God is using you for an amazing purpose. You are a witness of Him. You are a teacher. And in reading your articles, I feel God used you to witness to me about how sovereign He truly is. He says “we will know them by their fruits,” and I see your fruit through your writings.
I could go on, but I don’t wish to take up too much space! I wanted to tell you that I prayed tonight that God would just take away any grip this lifestyle still has on you. I think Satan is trying so hard to hurt you. Do you remember the story of Job in the Bible? How God allowed Satan to strip Job of all his possessions, even his own children? Satan thought surely Job would curse the Lord. But what happened? Job never gave up his faith. Even when he was so distraught he cursed the day he was born, he never cursed God. And God gave him everything back. And more.
“He will not allow your foot to be moved. He who keeps you will not slumber. The Lord is near unto all men who call upon Him in truth.”
I will continue to pray for you. I may never meet you in person, but in God, you are my Christian brother, and we are to encourage one another in Christ. I want to encourage you to keep up your fight! “For you are fearfully and wonderfully made!”
I truly believe God is working through you. And even tomorrow if you wake up and fall to temptation, don’t give up! He separates our sin from us as far as East is from the West. Every day of our lives. No longer are you alone because God holds you:
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” 2 Cor. 5:17
Isaiah 49:14-16:
“But Zion said, The LORD hath forsaken me, and my Lord hath forgotten me.
Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee.
Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands; thy walls are continually before me.”
The invitation which I accepted was “Come unto me, all ye who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and ye shall find rest unto your souls.” I never signed up for any epic heroic lifelong struggle against being homosexual.
i realise this probably sounds controversial but i really think a lot of christians have fetishised this idea of sin.
sin is something that is not good for you or others. that’s all. a lot of christians get incredibly hysterical about it ‘struggling’ with sin and then feeling incredibly guilty after being, really, just human. it’s, of course, good to know what’s right and wrong. but getting over wrought about the whole thing only leads to craziness.
i know it’s not always easy but try not to bounce between trying to be the brightest, holiest person in the world and then feeling like you’re the worst worm on the planet. weigh up your experiences with the brain god gave you. it’s excellent to aim for perfection but don’t beat yourself up for not achieving it. nobody else does. if they say they do they’re inevitably lying and too scared to admit their own problems.
personally i think you’re a little misguided but i think you’re trying to do the right thing and i commend you for that.
take things slowly – a lot of life’s most important lessons take a while to make reveal themselves.
Ben, I totally agree. Everyone’s spiritual journey should be one day at a time. If we try to think of tomorrow or skip ahead to the end result, then we are not concentrating on what God wants us to be doing today. This is another tactic of the devil distract us. God bless you for your input.
Matt why can’t you just be the young man that our God made you?
I really want to pull someones hair out and just scream “GOD DAMN IT MATT BE YOUR FUCKING SELF!” (sorry I know that offends some)
Your only choice is to be happy Matt.
Put an end to this awful self hating bullshit and strive to another successful, amazing, happy gay person. We are everywhere out here. Almost none of us except you and a handful of others has ANY desire to change one thing about this amazing gay life we have going on. I am thankful to GOD every day for making me different, special, G – A – Y. Deal with it Buddy, you re a sexy little creature coming across as a pathetic little creep.
I’m on Grindr too lets chat and become lifelong friends. Stay out of those restrooms now Senator. Move to Shreveport Matt not New Orleans if you want to stay straight – or build a bunker, pull the covers over your head, ignore it, blame your dad/family – - whatever. It is just all so F’ing TRAGIC.,
Matt, I’m very impressed with your faith, your insights and choices. God’s clearly given you wisdom and an amazing way of explaining Truth on the topic of SSA. Your writing,”The Biblical Perspective on Homosexuality” is powerful and a tool I’ll use. Thanks so much for taking the time to share this way! May God’s unconditional love wash over you, fulfill your desires, and fill you with hope. You’re so on the right track, Brother!
Matt, I never heard of you before today when I followed a link to one of the news articles about you and Grindr. I’m posting this because of something you said in the 2/17 interview on the Christian Post: ” It [homosexuality] is contrary to the doctrine of Christ…” I think you are wrong there. Christ does not address homosexuality in his teachings. Some apostles and the Old Testament discuss it and are the source of Christian antipathy regarding it. Christianity–His Word–replaces the angry, vengeful God of the OT, and the negative mentions in the NT are made by ordinary, fallible people, whose world view, like ours, includes decades if not centuries of baggage with regard to some issues. I believe Christ’s teachings are far more important than those of others, and I believe that we are closest to his hopes for us when we look to Him as a guide, not others. Error and prejudice enter the dialog when people interpret His Word. I doubt my post will allow you to feel better as the person you really are, vs. the one you have been trying to become, but one never knows. That you are fighting day after day your feelings and self-image without success should tell you something: This is part of who you are. It’s hard for me to reconcile a God that would create someone to suffer as you are and the one Christ’s path leads to. You aren’t Job, and that’s who I thought of when reading your story. I hope you find resolution, one way or another, and can stop beating yourself up. There’s so much more.
Matt, I really hope (and pray, yes) that you won’t do anything stupid/harmful to youself now that things are hard for you.
God does love you and will never forsake you. No one is capable of taking that away from you!
Yet no one nor anything will ever change your sexual orientation. I’m 20 years older than you, I’ve been through many of the things you have been since you asked Jesus into your heart. I’m still Christian. And I am still homosexual, gay, whatever. I have seen and see God acting through me, using me as his vessel when He finds necessary (I’m saying this for those who might ask me, ‘How come you’re so sure that Jesus is in you?’, though I perfectly understand that those who don’t want to believe me will never do; but I’m talking to Matt now).
Can Jesus change you? Well, can He stop the Earth’s movement around the Sun? Sure He can, but what for? He has His reasons for everything. Respect that. He is the way to the truth so you have the eternal life. You can’t have the latter unless you seek the truth, for which Jesus is absolutely necessary. Your’ve accepted Jesus and want the eternal life? Then you have to seek the truth only. Start from never lying to yourself. You are Christian and you ARE homosexual, and chances are you will always be (at least as long as you’re here on earth). If you feel ashamed to say that — exactly that, not “SSA” or any other substitute — then maybe you’re not yet ready to speak up and that’s why the Lord has turned things against you – for now.
I know you don’t and won’t hate God. Just don’t hate yourself either. If He keeps your sexual orientation the way it’s always been, then this is an integral part of His way for you, to lead you to the truth.
Hello Matt,
Praise our LORD JESUS CHRIST for his love and mercy to us all.
He truely is the way, the truth and the life.
I will send you a copy of my testimoney through facebook. I have been free fore almost three and half years now.
Blessings
Grant W Cleaves
Matt, I have been in communication with you before. You might want to get honest about where you are in your “recovery”. Let me know if I can help you. We can have a frank discussion, you could use some honest input. Kathy
Thank you, Sir. Your story has proved to me, finally, that this Jesus crap isn’t real. I’m now a happy and healthy and loving gay atheist. The powerful image of your self-delusions tipped me over the edge. You’re a pathetic man, Sir, but I thank you for your help, however unintentional on your part.
Ditto.
http://gawker.com/5981730/christian-post-blogger-who-wrote-about-leaving-homosexuality-found-cruising-for-dudes-on-grindr
Matt, your mishap was just shown to me. We’ve ALL screwed up! I’ll email you tomorrow. Exodus leaders and our ministry are praying for you and want to encourage you in The Lord and with our care and concern for you. No one’s perfect. I’m glad you owned up to it. Move forward in Him. I would encourage you to seek Him for His grace. By the little I’ve read (need to and will read more), you’ve already started.
Hey Matt, you really need to embrace yourself for who you are, and god will still love you.
You can be christian and gay too!
Well said Phil !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Got book chapter and verse on that Phil?
You have chapter and verse Gene that says God doesn’t love gays or anyone else? Seriously, your chapter and verses out of context have no meaning. Learn the scripture.
Matt,
The posters on this page who seek to discouraged you and somehow seek to justified their lifestyle choices do not know what the bible says about sin. One it says that sin naturally dwells in us and we were made aware of it when we were made aware of the truth. We naturally sin and our feeling have been corrupted by our sin natural even though we have some ability to do good and etc. The reality is that regeneration in Christ did not eliminated the sin struggle but gave us a new power the Spirit of God living us. It is a war in us but we have been the guarantee of victory. Satan will fight us ferociously and the sin nature will demand its control over us. This is why is it so difficult at times and Paul warn us that we must fight dead to this old self which seeks dominion over us.The world are spiritual zombies naturally driven to want to silence any person that may bring into question their sinful choices so naturally they will mock and seek to dissuade you from your new walk in Christ. They want you to return to their path to eternal death which awaits anyone who has rejected Christ’s gift of salvation.
I hope someday you will find the acceptance and love that I feel towards every gay friend I have. I wish I could give you a hug right now. I wish I could show you what I feel of God’s love. I know you are fighting to do what is right in God’s eyes and that is admirable, but it’s hard for me to imagine that God with all his infinite wisdom and love would want you to live a life that makes you feel so depressed by rejecting a part of you that you can’t control or change. I also don’t consider homosexuality a sin. I can’t change you or your beliefs so I’m not going to try, but I hope you know that tonight a random stranger will send a prayer for you that you can find happiness and peace in your life, in what ever way God wills it.
babbling won’t get your argument won.. I was asking for facts not your own personal fiction.
Matt, what a waste of a life. Be yourself. Don’t waste one more minute with all this no sense. Be yourself and LOVE the way you are.
I’m curious, Matt, if you’re ex-gay why do you go to gay sites? To convert people or find your next boyfriend?
I am a muslim and I just want to let you know that although you may have some attractions towards men, God will forgive you as longs as you do not act upon them. I know it is probably really difficult for you because it is your heart that may be desiring the attention and affection and so forth, but reassure yourself by knowing that this is all a test for you. I am a girl but I am not gay and I have been in love with a guy for the past year however, I have stirred away from being close to him because I do not want to raise any temptations. I hope one day maybe he will come back to me. Anyhow, remember God/Allah tests those he loves the most so just have patience. I hope you will be at ease soon, and I will be praying for you
Have a nice day.
Matt – I really feel sorry for you…or I would if your actions weren’t so dangerous. There is nothing wrong with you and you are committing no sin by being gay. You are a pathetic role model. Have you read the lies and misinformation of your supporters? Really, Matt, if you “chose” to be gay, why is it so damn hard to “un” choose it. I’ll tell you why. It’s NOT a choice, it is a integral aspect of the human experience. We are not living in the 13th century. The only life being ruined here is yours.
PEric70: Exactly. I actually think that although Matt may believe in God, and there’s nothing wrong with that, he also knows that he’s not changing. This is really just an attempt at attracting attention to himself. I mean why would someone conflicted actually post the SAME picture on Grindr as what they use on their Christian blog? So many people in these comments are so homophobic and ignorant of their own Christian faith that their comments reflect how far we as a society must go to understand God’s love and His perfection in each of us. The Christ like responses on here are few and far between as most simply choose to reiterate the same message of what scripture say about men with men and giving NO merit to the culture, civilization, writer or translation of those scriptures. If many here would devote as much energy towards the heterosexual issue of divorce (which probably reflects about 50% of those making comments) that the bible prohibits they’d be doing some justice. Oh I know, that’s a taboo subject because only certain scripture passages are up for debate. Please, hypocrites that should be thrown out of the temple!
i’m guessing you’ve already seen this:
personally, when i came out to my parents at 18 they sent me to courage which was an offshoot from exodus.
they were actually a splinter group who said that jesus taught a personal morality based on love. that, for some, they may end up marrying a woman and having a pretty much heterosexual lifestyle. for others, they may have a natural inclination towards abstinence. but then, for others, they may end up in a committed same sex relationship whereas others may not be able to do that and end up with multiple partners. what they did teach, however, was that in all your dealings with others you must act out of love. using other people to try to make yourself feel better is selfish. loving other people is not.
going there saved me from thinking that i had to hate myself for the rest of my life or turn my back on my christian upbringing. their teaching pretty much informs most of my thinking now (so many years later). quite simply (be it in the way i talk to the person serving me in a coffee shop or the way i talk to people who perhaps i don’t even like that much), i try to think 1st ‘am i acting out of love towards this person or not?’.
personally, i do not think jesus cared at all if you were gay or not (i mean look at the company he kept!). he didn’t say love the sinner hate the sin, he only ever loved the sinner. i lead a pretty boring life – i’m training to become a piano tuner and my boyfriend works in a sex shop. i do a 6 day week and hardly ever go out as i’m too knackered most the time. i’ve got an extended group of friends and it’s a very caring group of people. it’s not perfect of course but i see a lot of love that i recognise from my church days. just because people don’t believe in jesus does not mean that they do not or are incapable of love.
the more i’ve looked into it the more i’ve found that so much homophobia comes not from straight people but from self hating gays. i mean the tele evangelist caught with a rent boy in a toilet is so much of a news staple that it’s a cliché nowadays. and it’s not a coincidence. you hate in others what you most dislike about yourself.
i’m not going to tell you what to do. you have to find your own way through the world. i hope you find happiness and love and fulfilment as that’s the most you can wish for for someone on this planet.
love
ben
Amazing share Ben. I’d love to have a friend like you!!!
what i am hearing is a confusion between sexual addiction, and sexual identity. for instance we all have certain sexual images that push our buttons of arousal which can be just as syntillating as orgasm itself. but we dont love those images we have no emotional intimacy with those images we have no lasting actual living experiences with those images. why would we choose to have sexually erotic relationships with these images at the expense of having them with an actual living person who we know and love? im talking about a bonded relationship with another person out of mutual love, respect, devotion, affection, trust, attraction, that could possibly lead to a shared committed relationship. answering the why question is about dealing with addiction?
whether you are attracted to the same sex or opposite sex, its about physicalities. as a believer in christ, i know of no physicalities that account for anything under the new covenant, spirit accounting for everything. i know you believe differently, but are unable to explain how.
consider that in being of your faith that jesus who you have faith in lives in you. he has moved in his furniture and books, put in his carpets and curtains, and pictures and lives in you. the truth , the life, and the way lives in you. his healing power lives in you. his life giving loves lives in you. all you will ever need eternally lives in you.
in the words of paul………………..my prayers are that you thru his grace will continue to grow in the knowledge of how high, how wide , how deep is his love in whatever trials he has allowed you to experience. god bless you.
I really dig what you said John Roberts.
Hi Matt,
I am over here–can’t believe I had tears running down my cheeks reading your articles and your testimony. With so many phony people out there, the realness of you, your clear walk with Christ and your strength is amazing.
One thing I want to say is that you are not alone. I have never struggled with homosexual feelings in my own walk, but that does not mean I don’t struggle with other sexual thoughts, etc. In all honesty, our society has become so entrenched in sex and in self-gratification, it is a wonder anyone can remain pure! Sometimes, I want to shut off the TV, disable the computer, to shield my eyes from all the filth perpetrating this world.
Homosexuality is not the only sinful lifestyle a Christian can struggle with. For some it is pornography, for others it’s drunkenness, still others it’s idolatry: to money, or a spouse or a career. As a woman, I hear constantly that men struggle with sexual sin (as if women don’t! haha). Some women may indeed struggle with pornography, but many also struggle with romance/erotic books (as we women tend to be very emotionally driven). In fact, going into a bookstore these days can be downright embarrassing passing by shelf after shelf of erotica.
I guess what I am trying to say is sin is everywhere, homosexual or otherwise–be you a man or woman.
You are not alone in your struggle. And it appears, from your testimony, that you have given your life over to God. You may not see it now, but I think God is using you for an amazing purpose. You are a witness of Him. You are a teacher. And in reading your articles, I feel God used you to witness to me about how sovereign He truly is. He says “we will know them by their fruits,” and I see your fruit through your writings.
I could go on, but I don’t wish to take up too much space! I wanted to tell you that I prayed tonight that God would just take away any grip this lifestyle still has on you. I think Satan is trying so hard to hurt you. Do you remember the story of Job in the Bible? How God allowed Satan to strip Job of all his possessions, even his own children? Satan thought surely Job would curse the Lord. But what happened? Job never gave up his faith. Even when he was so distraught he cursed the day he was born, he never cursed God. And God gave him everything back. And more.
“He will not allow your foot to be moved. He who keeps you will not slumber. The Lord is near unto all men who call upon Him in truth.”
I will continue to pray for you. I may never meet you in person, but in God, you are my Christian brother, and we are to encourage one another in Christ. I want to encourage you to keep up your fight! “For you are fearfully and wonderfully made!”
I truly believe God is working through you. And even tomorrow if you wake up and fall to temptation, don’t give up! He separates our sin from us as far as East is from the West. Every day of our lives. No longer are you alone because God holds you:
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” 2 Cor. 5:17
Isaiah 49:14-16:
“But Zion said, The LORD hath forsaken me, and my Lord hath forgotten me.
Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee.
Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands; thy walls are continually before me.”
God bless you!
The invitation which I accepted was “Come unto me, all ye who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and ye shall find rest unto your souls.” I never signed up for any epic heroic lifelong struggle against being homosexual.
Self-hatred is so sad.
i realise this probably sounds controversial but i really think a lot of christians have fetishised this idea of sin.
sin is something that is not good for you or others. that’s all. a lot of christians get incredibly hysterical about it ‘struggling’ with sin and then feeling incredibly guilty after being, really, just human. it’s, of course, good to know what’s right and wrong. but getting over wrought about the whole thing only leads to craziness.
i know it’s not always easy but try not to bounce between trying to be the brightest, holiest person in the world and then feeling like you’re the worst worm on the planet. weigh up your experiences with the brain god gave you. it’s excellent to aim for perfection but don’t beat yourself up for not achieving it. nobody else does. if they say they do they’re inevitably lying and too scared to admit their own problems.
personally i think you’re a little misguided but i think you’re trying to do the right thing and i commend you for that.
take things slowly – a lot of life’s most important lessons take a while to make reveal themselves.
love
ben
Ben, I totally agree. Everyone’s spiritual journey should be one day at a time. If we try to think of tomorrow or skip ahead to the end result, then we are not concentrating on what God wants us to be doing today. This is another tactic of the devil distract us. God bless you for your input.
Matt why can’t you just be the young man that our God made you?
I really want to pull someones hair out and just scream “GOD DAMN IT MATT BE YOUR FUCKING SELF!” (sorry I know that offends some)
Your only choice is to be happy Matt.
Put an end to this awful self hating bullshit and strive to another successful, amazing, happy gay person. We are everywhere out here. Almost none of us except you and a handful of others has ANY desire to change one thing about this amazing gay life we have going on. I am thankful to GOD every day for making me different, special, G – A – Y. Deal with it Buddy, you re a sexy little creature coming across as a pathetic little creep.
I’m on Grindr too lets chat and become lifelong friends. Stay out of those restrooms now Senator. Move to Shreveport Matt not New Orleans if you want to stay straight – or build a bunker, pull the covers over your head, ignore it, blame your dad/family – - whatever. It is just all so F’ing TRAGIC.,
hi Matt go suck a dick
Matt, I’m very impressed with your faith, your insights and choices. God’s clearly given you wisdom and an amazing way of explaining Truth on the topic of SSA. Your writing,”The Biblical Perspective on Homosexuality” is powerful and a tool I’ll use. Thanks so much for taking the time to share this way! May God’s unconditional love wash over you, fulfill your desires, and fill you with hope. You’re so on the right track, Brother!
Matt, I never heard of you before today when I followed a link to one of the news articles about you and Grindr. I’m posting this because of something you said in the 2/17 interview on the Christian Post: ” It [homosexuality] is contrary to the doctrine of Christ…” I think you are wrong there. Christ does not address homosexuality in his teachings. Some apostles and the Old Testament discuss it and are the source of Christian antipathy regarding it. Christianity–His Word–replaces the angry, vengeful God of the OT, and the negative mentions in the NT are made by ordinary, fallible people, whose world view, like ours, includes decades if not centuries of baggage with regard to some issues. I believe Christ’s teachings are far more important than those of others, and I believe that we are closest to his hopes for us when we look to Him as a guide, not others. Error and prejudice enter the dialog when people interpret His Word. I doubt my post will allow you to feel better as the person you really are, vs. the one you have been trying to become, but one never knows. That you are fighting day after day your feelings and self-image without success should tell you something: This is part of who you are. It’s hard for me to reconcile a God that would create someone to suffer as you are and the one Christ’s path leads to. You aren’t Job, and that’s who I thought of when reading your story. I hope you find resolution, one way or another, and can stop beating yourself up. There’s so much more.
Matt, I really hope (and pray, yes) that you won’t do anything stupid/harmful to youself now that things are hard for you.
God does love you and will never forsake you. No one is capable of taking that away from you!
Yet no one nor anything will ever change your sexual orientation. I’m 20 years older than you, I’ve been through many of the things you have been since you asked Jesus into your heart. I’m still Christian. And I am still homosexual, gay, whatever. I have seen and see God acting through me, using me as his vessel when He finds necessary (I’m saying this for those who might ask me, ‘How come you’re so sure that Jesus is in you?’, though I perfectly understand that those who don’t want to believe me will never do; but I’m talking to Matt now).
Can Jesus change you? Well, can He stop the Earth’s movement around the Sun? Sure He can, but what for? He has His reasons for everything. Respect that. He is the way to the truth so you have the eternal life. You can’t have the latter unless you seek the truth, for which Jesus is absolutely necessary. Your’ve accepted Jesus and want the eternal life? Then you have to seek the truth only. Start from never lying to yourself. You are Christian and you ARE homosexual, and chances are you will always be (at least as long as you’re here on earth). If you feel ashamed to say that — exactly that, not “SSA” or any other substitute — then maybe you’re not yet ready to speak up and that’s why the Lord has turned things against you – for now.
I know you don’t and won’t hate God. Just don’t hate yourself either. If He keeps your sexual orientation the way it’s always been, then this is an integral part of His way for you, to lead you to the truth.
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